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Thursday, March 24, 2016

Thankful Thursday 3/24/2016

I want to start this Thankful Thursday post with a song that is performed by someone I had a creative writing class with. My friend from college is the one singing the chorus of "Thank You." This song is one of my favorites from Kevin - the other is "Honesty Box" which is from a CD he gave everyone in the class. Kevin was always an awesome guy and very kind to everyone. I think this song is a great kick off.



I am thankful for the wonderful award from Shady last Friday. I feel so honored to have won my first award for Musings of a Creative Writer. I was having a bad day at work and when I saw Shady's post, it made my day so much better - I had a big smile on my face.




I am thankful for the blogging community and I am also thankful for the Writing.com community. When I came home from work at the library I had an envelope from Writing.com waiting for me. I was surprised to see it was a merit badge  from the Soundtracker challenge. I was so happy to see it. I also realized Beth sent me the physical merit badge along with the e-badge for my Writing.com portfolio (I didn't notice that last week). Thanks, Beth for the wonderful surprise!




I've been working hard on my book and yesterday I was telling the cab driver about my book. He wanted to hear one of my poems and fortunately I had some on me. I read to him the poem about traveling through Virginia. He really liked it and wants to know when the book will be finished so he can buy a copy. I feel thankful for that opportunity and a potential customer. I feel thankful for all that are already interested in my book! I will be done at the end of May!

I want to thank Dave, Christine, Janie, Mary and everyone else who have encouraged me to tell my stories and have no fear about them in my book. It feels great to write about my stories and everyone is right: I should not be afraid to use my voice and share my stories.

Last week someone I went to Germany with back in high school died (we went in April 2007 through the German Club). I heard of the news from my aunt - I hadn't kept in touch with him after Germany because he annoyed me so much. He was living in the South, but my aunt is friends with his mom. Why didn't I keep in touch with him? I thought he was selfish and he ruined Austria for our group. He didn't want to see museums or other things in Austria, he wanted to find this one lawn mower shop. I forget the reason he gave, but he wanted to see this shop and since we had to stay in groups, we had to go with him. It annoyed me and was a source of drama during that trip.

On Monday I made a post on Writing.com about how selfish he was. Some thought I was talking about the manner of his death, but I didn't mean that at all. I explained the point of being sour and some raised a good point about what that trip signified along with the manner of his death. I never thought of that and when I had a clear head, it became clear. I tend not to show sadness right away, I get angry. I was angry about the trip, not only Austria, but a mutual friend and I were mean to him at one point during the trip. I felt really bad. And I felt really bad about my pettiness the other day. I decided to write a poem and I am going to share it with you all.

Secondhand Details of Innsbruck, Austria

There are those of us who express their anger in public,
there are those of us who suffer in silence;
only secondhand details in your scrapbook and memories:
“please help me find this lawn mower shop,” lost in the fog.

There are those of us who suffer in silence;
as we wander around the ghetto in Innsbruck,
“please help me find this lawn mower shop,” lost in the fog:
despite the anger, the pleas win, as I translate the signs—

as we wander around the ghetto in Innsbruck,
yet a wall with graffiti scribbled draws my attention,
despite the anger and pleas not to stop, I translate the sign,
please allow me to do one thing I want to do! A picture snapped,

yet a wall with graffiti scribbled still draws my attention,
and a polizei station with a cute officer, a conversation in German—
please allow me to do one thing I want to do! A picture snapped,
“we have to continue on! A lawn mower shop is around the corner!”

And a polizei station with a cute officer, a conversation in German,
shakes his head without a word, just a wave goodbye:
“we have to continue on! A lawn mower shop is around the corner!”
We never found a lawn mower shop, even meters and meters down,

shakes his head without a word, just a wave goodbye:
“but the maps said there was one here!” his anger grows,
we never found a lawn mower shop, even meters and meters back,
even the cozy coffee shop doesn’t ease the disappointment.


“But the maps said there was one here!” his anger grows,
there are those of us who express our anger in public,
even the cozy coffee shop doesn’t ease the disappointment.
Only secondhand details in your scrapbook and memories.


Here are some pictures of my scrapbook I made:




And some from Photobucket. I have to revive my Facebook temporarily to save other travel pictures for this book. I should have done that when I revived it in December to get some numbers. Then it'll go back to deactivated:



Snowed in on the Austrian Alps!

Rothenberg. I was 17 - I look so young!

I really like this picture. One of my best from a point and shoot camera. 2007.

What are you thankful for?

2 comments:

  1. Hi, dear Jessica Marie, and happy Thankful Thursday!

    I can turn it around and tell you in all sincerity that I am thankful for the opportunity to make people smile and feel appreciated simply by sharing an award with them. You have given me a gift in return simply by letting me know how happy you are to be the recipient. Congratulations also on receiving the Soundtracker merit badge. That's two awards in one week!

    Es tut mir leid to learn that someone in your German club died. Two of my high school classmates died this month just one week apart. Such is life...and death. I love the pictures you took in Austria and seeing how you looked nearly 10 years ago.

    I hope the happiness you are experiencing carries you through Easter weekend, dear friend Jessica!

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    1. Hi, dear Shady!

      :) This has been a great week and I feel like my writing dreams are slowly being realized. It's a great feeling!

      I was shocked to hear that, especially with how well his life was going. Such a shock, especially learning about how unhappy he was. You never expect such a death. :( I know! I can't believe how much of a baby face I still had as a teenager! I was a bit over 105 lbs back then, which is normal for my height of 4'10. It's amazing to see how far I've come along, though.

      Thanks, Shady! I hope you have a great holiday!

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