I realized tonight after I got out of the shower that in the past few weeks I've really grown up. For the past week someone has been bothering me and despite me putting my foot down, he just wouldn't stop. I blocked him without warning, I just did it. I thought, "Yeah, I don't need that," and I smiled because I thought I would have never done that in the past, I would have felt bad about it. I feel nothing. Maybe if he was closer it would have been harder, but this person wasn't close to me. I felt good that I finally stood up for myself and put my foot down. I am proud of myself right now. As I found on Facebook, it's true and I learned it the hard way in November (I experienced it before, but November was in the WORST way):
"Just because someone desires you, does not mean that they value you.
Read it over.
Let those words resonate in your mind."
The cold March sun sets into the west,
under the backdrops of the bare trees;
it's been colder than average, the test
of patience for a never-ending winter
and the loss of Nan this January past,
yet, despite the sadness, memories sprint.
We set out to the empty Quad,
to the radio station, I'm excited,
talking about Nick who had me awed
and talked and danced all night,
though he had to depart to drum
with his band. Yet butterflies take flight
in my stomach, but I do okay,
as the CDs spin and music blasts,
and I win concert tickets, yay!
The night goes smoothly, at least in my mind,
a vision that I welcome from the past two months,
hard, and we go to the bar with signs that shined.
I probably should have gathered it would be bad,
when someone cursed us out for stealing seats.
But, the worst was when I became sad
and her new friend picked up on it and teased,
calling me names and uptight, though true.
Yet, we went home with them as she pleased.
From that night forward, on March 9, 2013,
in hopes that the friendship would continue,
grow stronger, like Spring's first green;
but, it didn't and as life falls apart,
it becomes clear where I stand
and that's not in her vision, we must depart.
Like dominos, the strongest survives
from the weaknesses in which she can thrive.