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Friday, July 19, 2013

Summer Mix 2013 - Tracks 7-9

I love this song. They played this song the two times my Arabic class went to Casablanca in Warrington. I have great news! I'm planning on getting an Arabic degree after my English degree. Mom brought it up tonight, but she reminded me about the full time job issue. After I get the fall semester paid off at WCU, I'm going to go to Montgomery County Community College (the local community college) and talk to them about price and when classes are available for Arabic. The professor I had for my first two semesters teaches at Montco. I'll be preparing my resume for the temp agency soon and my aunt named a second temp agency that I'll also try. I want to start saving. I'm hoping if I do get into the Arabic class at Montco and whatever job I get, they'll be okay with me taking a class once or twice a week. I'll work evenings if I have to!

There's nothing I can do with an English degree. I have lost my desire to write; my medications (and I'm sure my thyroid too) wiped it all away, then the poetry class I had showed me that my poetry books sucked. I just don't desire writing anymore. Dad joked around at dinner and said, "Jess is afraid of clowns!" Mom thought he said, "Jess is afraid of nouns!" We told mom and she said, "Oh, okay, I was going to say that doesn't make sense since she is an English major." My grammar sucks. I really want to teach Arabic to college students and write children's books in Arabic. I feel like there is more of a need for Arabic than English. I just feel at a dead end. I also feel like I fucked around in college. From history to English, it was just a waste of time. I really wanted to start out at Montco for general education credits, but mom had the money at that time and said no. We both now think it would have been better to have started there then go directly into university. I wasn't ready for it and I floundered the first three semesters. I also have few friends, which to think about it, it sucks. College should have been a time for making friends and knowing what you want to do and pursuing it. I'm hoping by starting Arabic at Montco, it'll be a step in the right direction. I'm just nervous about it turning into what German turned out to be. :\

I discovered this song in my 4th semester as an Arabic student. We were giving presentations on Arab music (I chose Elissa; Ziad suggested it to me and she's great as well) and one of my classmates found her. I just loved this song. It's about love and jealousy; it;s a simple message and has some humor to it. I love Nancy Ajram's videos. She's from Egypt.

Motley Crue, a perfect summer band. They were the first concert I ever went to on Labor Day, 2005. It was such a great time and it was part of the Allentown Fair. I think that's why I had such an interest in Wisconsin's state fair. I love rocking out to Motley Crue. :)


  1. I hope you have success in Arabic! The Chinese loved me when I visited them. I don't know if I want to study too much Chinese though since everyone else is so scarily amazing in it. I have written out most of 沒有共產黨就沒有新中國 and that seems like pretty much The End if I can help it. The Chinese have done so much in tea so I'll probably end up learning more of it even if I don't really want to...

    I prefer Russian, even if the USSR collapsed in '91. I wouldn't agree with everyone else that I speak it well - I speak it precisely, academically.

    1. My cousin's girlfriend was just employed by Vanguard for her Chinese degree. That's why mom pushed it. Now it's changed. I'm just hoping a job will let me pursue it. I feel like I have so much going on with health and all.

    2. Why your mother pushed what? What? I don't understand. What are you saying?

      I think that your primary problem when writing is that you assume everyone is on the same brainwave, so you use myriads of pronouns without clarifying who is being discussed.

      Nevermind, I will ask where I am confused.

      Now what is changed?
      What do you want to pursue?

      What is going on with health etc.?

    3. Mom pushed me studying another language in hopes that I would get a business job. I don't want to work in a business setting. But, now she's concerned about a FT job because I need insurance and she wants me to move. So, I'm going to have to plan around this. I wish I would have left WCU sooner when I had a chance and pursued what I wanted. Now I'm stuck.

    4. Why do you not want to work in business?

      What makes you think you're stuck?
      Is getting an undergraduate degree a totally bad idea?

    5. I don't have a business degree anyway. But, I don't really want to work in that environment. I'd like somewhere laid back like a museum or library. A lot of stress is bad for the thyroid and bipolar disorder (if I have that, but if I have Hashi's, stress makes Hashi worse).

      I'm stuck because I am not sure if wherever I work will let me pursue that degree. I don't think the community college offers Arabic at night and I couldn't take a night class because of buses. If I do go to the new doctor, his hours are only during the week. I hate having chronic conditions.

      I don't think it's a bad idea (to get a degree) if you know what you want and won't waste time figuring out what you do want and ending up with a worthless degree. English is pretty worthless. :\

    6. Neither do I. It's just a complicated-sounding undergraduate degree I am aiming to obtain, which is beneficial in showing one can take a certain amount of rigour.
      Why don't you want to work in a business environment? It is rather difficult to find museum and library positions. A lot of stress is good as long as you have a good method of dealing with it! Certainly helps boredom.

      Why does any of that stop you?

      Why are there so many English majors, then?
      English is useful as one of the six international languages the UN uses. (English, Chinese, Russian, Spanish, French, Arabic) You seem to be somewhat well-versed in the last two, and I've got the next two I listed after English.

      Does anyone have a strong idea of what they want to do?

  2. It's a shame your English degree and your poetry haven't worked out; I do like your writing and am disappointed that others don't seem to share that opinion. :( Like Claire, I hope your Arabic works out!

    I had never heard of Amr Diab before but his song sounded good; I had, however, heard of Nancy Ajram and I liked the track you posted. Funny you mentioned Elissa: I have one of her albums! (I have Ayshalak.) I can't understand her lyrics but I love her voice and her music.

    1. I'm not even sure if I can pursue the Arabic degree now. As mom pointed out, I need to work full time for the insurance and money. I want to move too. It'll especially be harder if I go to the new doctor because they only have hours during the week. I am considering going back to my first doctor because I believe they have weekend hours, but I dunno. When he diagnosed me with bipolar in 2009, I said, "I can't be bipolar. I'll take an antidepressant only." He wrote out the script for Zoloft. I didn't know that ADs make bipolar worse. He should have known and should have said, "you need to be treated." The same thing when I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism and I said, "I don't want to be treated. I'll go holistic." I didn't want to be off my AD at the time and I was scared. So he didn't do anything. Maybe he should have? I don't think they treat more severe cases of thyroid because mom had to go to an endocrinologist for her Hashi's. I don't know what I'm going to do. I hate having chronic conditions. I just feel like I've wasted too much time in college. I should have kept the history and stuck with the writing minor -- could have worked in a museum or finished earlier and had the time to pursue the Arabic. ::sigh::