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Monday, March 5, 2012

Jim McAndrew; July 27, 1987-March 5, 2011

For those of you who don't know, today marks the year anniversary of my friend's murder. I don't feel like getting into all the details, but you can check out my blog from last year and the news story:

In Shock
Obituary
Story

I'm finally starting to cry, I think keeping busy all day has kept me calm, but now I am feeling it. I wrote a poem:

Yearbook: One Year Later

Look at this photograph,
your brown eyes that stare back;
that smirk always makes me laugh.
I always fell in love with it--
your hair, long at the time, nicely kept;
the shirts always brought out, well lit,
the beauty of your face;
the soft contours, the masculine tone--
no wonder why I fell at fast pace:
ninth grade was such a confusing time,
yet with that congenial smile, you helped me through--
the Led Zeppelin conversations, your Myspace mime,
I wish that could have last.
As I look through this yearbook,
one year, four seasons, have passed,
I will never forget the face that looks back,
although black and white, ink splashed:
I will never forget your colours
and the few memories never lack
in the love and admiration I felt for you.
In this darkness, sadness continues to shine through--
2005 will forever change in the wake of 2011,
I miss you, Jimbo, the pain is felt daily--
I can't believe it has been a year:
March the Fifth will forever be etched
and burned; the day life was snuffed.
I will never forget you!



4 comments:

  1. Heartfelt and powerful. May God be with you as you grieve.

    Love and blessings,

    Dr. Ni

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  2. ::hug:: Thanks Dr. Ni. I can't believe how hard it's been. I still feel anger towards the twin brother.

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  3. Why depress yourself remembering every miserable anniversary, Jessica? I had a car accident mid-late January recently and it ruined my life as I had it, but rather than mulling over all its exact details and how it threw me out of [algebraic] Calculus to never return I try to move to life's other matters.

    For example, next semester I am doing plenty of financial calculus in Accounting! Baby steps, baby steps.

    My suggestion is to use March 5th for some other kind of event so whenever you think about it, you can think about the other event. 5 March is Iran's National Tree-planting Day!

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  4. Because I don't want to forget Jim. Starting next year March 5th will be to celebrate his life.

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