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Sunday, November 13, 2011

Inner Beauty

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    As you all know, 8 months ago I lost my friend Jim. My book will be done by Friday (no ifs, ands or buts) and I e-mailed his sister asking about the pictures she said she would send over months agofor my essay for my book. It's understandable that she's busy; I just kindly reminded her and said my book is being sent off to be printed on 11-18. I hope she doesn't think I am rude. :X
     Since this tragedy, I've been talking to one of Jim's friends. He doesn't have a picture posted, but I like him -- he's really sweet. I was chatting with him this morning:
     
     
     
     
     
    • Are you by any chance a photographer?
  • Cody Loayza
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Cody Loayza
    • who, ur up early lol
    • and noo sorry :/:/
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • lol, yep, so used to it from the weekday. Hmmm... I am debating whether or not I should edit this picture
    • I am publishing a book and sent people the picture I want to use. I sent it through my phone and took the picture from my computer. Someone thought it looked washed and should edit it
  • Cody Loayza
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Cody Loayza
    • ohh i gotcha
    • hmm idk, wish i could help :/:/
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • Thanks anyway (I personally think the picture look fine as is). :):) How are you?
  • Cody Loayza
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Cody Loayza
    • lol anytime
    • and im alright, tired. havent slept yet, just got home not too long ago
    • how are u doing?
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • Eh, alright. Better than some days; I've been working my butt off trying to finish my book
  • Cody Loayza
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Cody Loayza
    • well thats good
    • funny cause im actually gonna try and start coming up with ideas for mine i wanna write lol
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • lol, it's fun, but a lot of work. I'm in the process of finishing my Arabic story
  • Cody Loayza
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Cody Loayza
    • thats good glad to hear that
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • Oh, I wanted to ask you. I included an essay about Jimbo. Do you have any pictures?
  • Cody Loayza
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Cody Loayza
    • sadly no
    • i might have b4
    • but theyre long gone
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • Aww, okay. I asked Sarah, but understandably she's really busy (she was going to send them over)
    • Yeah, sadly the last time I saw him was before I had a digtal camera.
  • Cody Loayza
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Cody Loayza
    • yeah damn..
    • wait can i ask u something?
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • Sure
  • Cody Loayza
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Cody Loayza
    • how did u come to know jim?
    • just curious
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • We went to HS together, had a class. My friend introduced me to him (had a huge crush on him). Sadly, I was too shy to really talk to him in person, so we usually just chatted.
    • I am really shy in person. :\:\
  • Cody Loayza
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Cody Loayza
    • ooooh okay
    • u guys went to upper merion together?
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • Yep :):)
    • The last time I chatted with Jimbo we got into this huge fight
  • Cody Loayza
    'bout 12 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Cody Loayza
    • really?
    • bout what? if its okay i ask
    • u dont need to answer
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 11 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • It's okay, it's pretty much out in tthat I have bipolar disorder. For the longest time my mom didn't want me medicated (I am now, but she still is in denial and resistant) and I was in my mixed state and he told me I needed help. Being really irritable and not on medicine besides the antidepressant at the time (I found out, you really shouldn't take an antidepressant if you have bipolar disorder), we fought about that. :\:\
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 11 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • *the open that
    • I never did apologize. :(:( I regret that
  • Cody Loayza
    'bout 11 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Cody Loayza
    • yeah i hear ya
    • i wasnt on good terms with him either at the time
    • which i feel bad about as well
    • so i feel u
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 11 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • ::hug::
    • I figured there would always be that chance. Actually, I think everything that happened made me realize I can't let my mom be the road block, I needed medicine
  • Cody Loayza
    'bout 11 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Cody Loayza
    • i understand that
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 11 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • I am on a med change now and somedays it's still really hard. Some days I lose friends
  • Cody Loayza
    'bout 11 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Cody Loayza
    • im really sorry to hear that
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 11 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • Something really bad happened, a misunderstanding and a "friend" called me a liar and said I need to be committed, that stung
  • Cody Loayza
    'bout 11 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Cody Loayza
    • yeah i can see why :/:/
    • some ppl dont have filters
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 11 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • No. So that made me angry and in my anger I deleted a whole bunch of people, fortunately some were good about it. That "friend" I deleted too and he said he'd never add me back
  • Cody Loayza
    'bout 11 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Cody Loayza
    • damn.. im real sorry
    • but ppl stay and ppl go for a reason
    • but hey, im sry to cut this short but im about to pass out any sec
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 11 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • Okay, thanks for listening. Sleep tight!
  • Cody Loayza
    'bout 11 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Cody Loayza
    • so imma go and try and sleep. i hope ui have a good day and ill ttyl
    • thank u :):) and no prob
  • Jessica Marie
    'bout 11 turn o' yer hourglass agohello
    Jessica Marie
    • You too, ttyl ::hug::


      So, is it possible to like someone whom you've never seen before? Maybe it's because I am losing everyone left and right that I am just getting ridiculous. :(

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