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Friday, September 30, 2011


My Kickass Organ playing

Okay, maybe it's not spectacular, but I am proud of myself. I took this video on Monday before my first lesson, so today I am going to get another one of me playing chords and mayhaps Silent Night. :)

I am also working on an Arabic childrens story about a magical organ possessed by the Jinn. My Arab friends are helping me proof in little sections. This is the very beginning.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Daily Positive Affirmations 9/28/2011

Today I had my first official organ lesson and I kicked butt. :) Tomorrow when I upload the videos, I will post it and talk more about my lesson. Needless to say, I did well for a beginner and it made me so happy. ^_^

Monday, September 26, 2011

Daily Positive Affirmation 9/26/2011

I love autumn. I love the changing of the leaves, the shortening of days, the chill in the air. It's been really humid in PA, so I can't wait until it cools down and I definitely can't wait for the leaves to change (they haven't yet).

Sunday, September 25, 2011

Saturday, September 24, 2011

Daily Positive Affirmation 9/24/2011

Happy birthday to John Hanson! I grew up watching the Muppets and to this day, still love them. :) Kermit the Frog is my absolute favorite.

Friday, September 23, 2011

Daily Positive Affirmation 9/23/2011

Doc Gibbs, as those of you who may not know appeared in Emeril Live, was at the library tonight. It was so much fun. I always love music and listening to the pianist gave me some ideas for things I can possibly play on the organ. :) Music makes me feel so alive.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

Thankful Thursday

I know this was what I was thankful for last Thursday, but I am truly thankful for MDJunction. This week I was appointed group leader of the Friends & Family of Alcoholic support group. I just love trying to assist people. Also, I am now an advocate of this wonderful site. :) I have met many great people and I am so thankful Barb told me about it. It has made my battles against hypothyroidism and bipolar a lot less lonelier. I just remember how afraid I was only 3 months ago and it's amazing to see the progress I have made in my life because of my friends and my support team of doctors. :)

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Daily Positive Affirmation 9/20/2011

There is something I love about random acts of kindness. This morning I was going for my daily bagel and tea at Starbucks (my boss at job #1 let me go), but they opened a bit later. Since I don't have classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays, students were freaking out about being late to their 8am classes. Since I was only working and my boss is a frequent at Starbucks and knows it gets busy, I let them all get in front of me. I said to all of them, "if you have an 8am class, please get in front of me. I am only working, I don't have to rush to a class." They all got to their classes in time. :) It made me happy.

My Black Dress

My Black Dress
I asked for a dress
Full of dazzling sparkles;
I was fifteen and naïve,
To think, it wasn’t impossible!
To think I’d ask for a Princess dress,
With purple added to the tulle.
What a mistake I made—
Ripping open the gold paper,
Green Christmas trees painted
And a shining glitter red bow;
Thinking I’d get my wish
Of the perfect Princess dress.
Out of the box, the boring white,
Like snow and cold too,
I lift this thin-layered dress;
Black as coal, ugly as soot
With black sequence and wait!
What’s this?
Black flowers embroidered?
I let out a cry of disappointment—
I was fifteen and naïve.
That dress, now at twenty-two,
Is beloved—it slims and accentuates
The hills and slopes of womanhood—
How I love my little black dress
And my queenly dimpled face.

Monday, September 19, 2011

Positive Affirmation 9/19/2011

Still learning how to read notes and chords, so I am pretty much playing around and recording what sounds good to my ears, lol. As one of my English profs said when I told her I was going to record something for my GB album for my book although I don't know how to read music yet, she said regardless how it sounds to put it on the album for people to buy because it is timeless and it shows that you are working hard and having fun with it.

Thanks to Claire for taking the pictures. :)

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Positive Affirmation 9/18/2011

There is nothing more that I love than taking a hot bath with some bath salts and a good book. I did that yesterday and it felt so great. I am not feeling too well, so it was just nice to relax. :)

Saturday, September 17, 2011

Positive Affirmation 9/17/2011

This might seem odd, but I just started talking to him today and I am in lust, haha. It's been a long time since I've felt "lusty" and I can honestly say, I love the feeling. He's a Packers fan, totally hardcore too. I'm going to keep talking to him and see where it goes. You know, sometimes journeys like these aren't too bad, but could be fun.

But, here is another one for today, since yesterday was my trip to Green Bay. I love to travel, it just feels nice to get away for a day and just explore as well as taking pictures. Here are some travel pictures:

Baltimore, May 2010.

Shenandoah Valley, VA. July 2010.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Daily Positive Affirmation

On MDJunction, I belong to a group called Self Esteem & Positive Thinking. I always have had a low self esteem and positivity was always few and far between for me, so I decided to join to help me create a better outlook for myself. One of the members posted this exercise from a famous blog:

Need an Instant Emotional Boost? Create a Book of Positiveness~Published by kimmiesm“The positive thinker sees the invisible, feels the intangible, and achieves the impossible.”
Here’s an idea I came across that can help you out on those days when you feel defeated, depressed and ready to give up on a goal you feel doubtful you will ever reach. On those days that you might feel a bit down on yourself about things you feel you failed at, try this exercise:
Create a Book of Positiveness for yourself
The purpose of the book is to give yourself a reminder of all the things you have to feel good about, all the accomplishments you have achieved thus far, and to train your mind to focus on what you do like about yourself and your life, instead of always focusing on what’s wrong in your life.
In my book, I have added photo’s of times in my life when I struggled to get past an obstacle, times when I persevered through those obstacles, good times with family and friends and any achievements I have made in my life, even as far back as grade school with all the 1st and 2nd place ribbons I won for excelling in gymnastics. Sometimes I run across pictures in a magazine that trigger a positive feeling in me and I will cut it out and paste into my book for later reference. Sometimes that picture can give me a spark of creativity that I never knew was there before.
Whenever I have some days that feel rough to get through, I sometimes go and look through that book to remind myself that this is only temporary. It may feel as though it will go on and on but in reality it’s only for a time. That’s usually the way everything in life is, temporary. I use this book to remind myself to be more patient with others, myself and life. I also use it at times when I feel a bit depressed, usually always has a way of bringing a smile back on my face.
Give it a try and see what you think….

So, I am going to be doing this and will be dedicating one entry a day, regardless of how busy I am, to positive affirmations about myself. I challenge you dear readers to do the same.

For my first affirmation, my trip to Green Bay. It was the first time I traveled for more than one day alone and despite my parents' belief that I will not be successful at it, I was. I actually handled my money better when I was traveling alone than when I am at home. It made me feel proud of myself because I could handle the money; having bipolar disorder that is one aspect I struggle with from time to time, but I accomplished it and I felt proud. Also, I met some wonderful people at the hotel, at the tailgate party and at the game. Their warmness exuded into me and I can honestly say I have never felt so happy before. Being inside of Lambeau Field was just wonderful and it was something about being at a game that made me feel so alive; the rushing and pulsating sensation were intense. It was just a great experience, I can't really put to words the feelings it stirred in me, but I feel like I truly belong there. My goal is to move there after graduation and eventually get a job in Lambeau hopefully writing for the Packers.

Let me share a poem with you on the new tradition of taking a shot for a Packers' victory. I am going to include it in my travel narrative:

Here's a toast among us,
green and yellow shots take air;
around me, rowdiness and cheer--
Lambeau's scent and swear in my hair,
an accentuation to my carefully painted face.
Another victory, here's to another year
of health, wins, good games and a trophy--
my first game, in my eyes joyful tears.
So here's to a new tradition--
of yearly travels to Green Bay,
comradery, tail gates and cheers in bars,
now what do you say?
Green and yellow shots descend,
"Go Pack Go" a quick gulp defends.